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Sunday, 05 October 2008
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FREEFALL
thousand faces
hidden behind
those clouds
fluttering heart
is echoing love
to soar desires
for a glimpse
of a pilgrimage voyage
alone in sea of past
to flee an angel message
thrashed somewhere
in redundant earthy needs
just to welcome unknowingly
- a freefall from heaven above!
~ nidhi
Tuesday, 05 August 2008
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CRYPTIC DILEMMA
I begged whole night
thinking
how much I need to cry,
to create a flow
to carry his hopes
from asylum of dead desires
to elysian of lively passions.
I begged whole night
telling him
I am a very weak soul
for he sees my vitality of tears
and not frailty of my abundant smile.
I begged whole night
making him to realize
how it feels
to see melting of snow….
how it feels when
tears drop without a reason….
I begged whole night
till day dawned with cloud
till my eyes dried without lashes
till my lips stitched with umbilical cord
till my mouth is puffed with ashes…….
I begged and I crawled
into his lap only for shelter….
covering my body and soul
meditatively with cushion of a thought
- May be the artist of mannequin
knows better about her
rather than
what mannequin thinks about herself.
~nidhi
Tuesday, 29 July 2008
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WHY ARE PROMISES MADE?
Why are promises made? Why we need to give assurance for the future to someone? Does it not create some sort of obligation, some binding in the relationship? Why don’t we just go and give all the feelings to the relationship in such a way that both the sides know some silent, unsaid promises will always be kept. Promises have captured such an important part of our life, infact I am feeling that the foundation of all the pious relationship starts with ‘promises’.
I see myself in mirage of your promises
rather than in mirror which you hold.
Why are promises made?
Has the sky also promised mother
to shower rain,
light the night with stars and moon?
Has the air also promised the leaves
for thrilling life,
unending growth and balmy love?
May be yes,
May be a promise made in silence!
Why are promises made?
Why enigma spirals around my life
And you need to give me
derision binding with some subtle words
languid in falseness.
I collect your warm raindrop promises
on my palm, hiding it from sun
But with a fear when barren will appear,
these raindrops will turn vultures
gashing every portion of my soul.
I can’t see now ladder of your promises
but derision binding of my expectations.
Why are promises made?
You always draw love aroma by promises
Assuring me that you are always by my side
You are just a treacherous hunter, hunting my dreams
Please, don’t bind me….
Even I know you are just bystander
But I love to hear your words,
these falseness, meaningless
even when I know they are metaphors, fairy tales!
I love when you captivate me within promise bars
and I love to shout, “Why are promises made?”
~nidhi
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
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SOMETIMES I THINK, BELIEVE AND WONDER...
Sometimes I think
to fictionize myself
as that trendy girl
making my life
little bit daedal
little bit elemental
sometimes I feel
to vomit out complexity
believing mystery is what
you love to solve.
The inquisitive mystery in
my vibrant lipstick
my blackish mascara
or the pinkish blusher.
with me in salacious dress.
Sometimes my heart
makes me to believe
innocence can never
give birth to mystery.
Simplicity cannot shout
for it is always confined
in some rigid walls of mind.
May be I hold somewhere
some misleading, absurd,
foolish and adulterated
definition of ‘innocence’ and ’simplicity’.
Everyone shouted
to change, to adapt to be a
pixyish, whimsical woman.
I tried and grossed out
“I have to change to get love”
But that was not easy
not because
my trail was not vigorous
but because
I have started to think
“How I will hold the end?”
They can make me to learn
the game rules
and how to play
creating mysterious mystery.
But I am the only one
to end the game.
For I always feared void, end,
the end - beginning of nothingness.
For I always love to play the game
with my heart and my soul.
I will be the loser
in both the ways.
Sometimes I think,
If I give my hand to you,
You will surely hold it
not because you want to hold it for life
but because you want to help me
to cross the road.
Sometimes I wonder
‘crossing the road’ is
far better and simpler
than creating the mystery to seize you!
~nidhi
Friday, 11 July 2008
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LUST WITH DEAD HOPE
A salty hope
admixed with sparkling smile
coming out from mind of diversion
Seemly gesture given to the sunset
To welcome night of totality.
A salty moment
admixed with mysterious rollickingness
coming out from mind of mystery
Freakish behavior given to love
To welcome blizzard of perplexity.
A salty touch
admixed with insensate solace
coming out from salacious ambiance
Rueful plight given to this enigma
To welcome some unkown dead hope.
~nidhi



